My responsibility to say no for kalimah Allah in christianity world

depression and regretful..

finally i have checked the result..its very unfortunately i failed 4 subject and extend 1 more semester here..so tragic..T_T
i know all that was comes from my own false..so i should face it in realistic..no one in my family know about that..
what i should do know???
time cannot rewind..
i should decrease broadband abuse..
i should change my own perception about my roommates..they are very kind..i think -ve about themselves even myself have many problem..i point to themselves the problem..

what happen in Disember??

almost many things happen in this month...
this month which i sacrificed lots of my sleeping time..
this month also was practical month.on my 1st day practical started,i have made trouble..even we have no job to do for practical( absolutely bored,part time play pingpong) but i got new friends from uitm perak and polytech..and i also get many useful advice from the employer and staff..
this month is my 1st time i sleep in wad..i was jailed in the wad for 9 days..that was new place for myself to adapt..
along this month i become a transporter for my younger sister..my younger sister still don't have license yet..see,how lovely brother i am??

tonight i want to watch real sparklers..so i want to it real on my eyes..

happy new year to you all who read this post..^_^

Exam mood...

I discover some video in youtube for fun and i found this video..

felt so touching..just want to cry like a baby..

and i hope u got the same feeling like me..T.T

Jangan tinggalkan org yang kita sayang untuk orang yang kita suka

kerna orang yang kita suka akan tinggalkan kita untuk orang yang mereka sayang..

///jangan cube dapatkan orang yang kita sayang///

///tetapi sayanglah dengan apa yang kita ada///

Pulai in Memory..

~~NATURE OF PULAI~~

In the sunny day..

From veranda view

I like hangout at the veranda

i like the view from the window

PULAI 217(last day)

Looks better than my own kampung..

in the drizzling morning...

pose with dreaming motorcycle..

part 1 gathering..

UITM PERLIS is the best place for relaxing . .^_^

psstt:Next semester still in my mind whether i qualify to get hostel or not..If i get,How about roomate??I dont want the same roommate again..

My bufday is tomorrow...

i have done engine test..grateful because i use some trick by bring in some notes.i desperate to do that due to unsatisfied result for test 1.

Next,i got some conflict with bard..about our carto report..we actually are partnership

so sleepy now,ill be update soon..

psst:no body know that tomorrow is my bufday..maybe it's still earlier to say this..waitng for best friend who appreciate me.the goodfriend suppose to know their buddy bufday rite..??

No class for today...

There is someone who try to be close with me since i have broadband,but i clearly understand such the type person.i catched your disguise..hehehe..dont lie to me anymore...!!!I already face a long journey.From matrix and now in UITM even in fourth semester.these people just want take advantage from my dumb..
I
just only spot a few people that i can act nice to them..i always be kind to other people in many aspect..

but now..i smile to people who deserve to get it..

about my classmate BARD..

I consider whether i should offer him to stay in my house when practical month coming.I feel pity of him,no house in new place..but sometimes he is hot tempered..Hard to predict his behavior when he is bad mode or when he is in joke mood..i feel confusing now...

psstt:broadband abuse..more and more occupied..

learning from my 1st love...

Suatu pagi yang dingin, terjadilah satu perbualan antara seorang guru falsafah dan pelajarnya...
pelajar: guru, apakah erti cinta..?bagaimanakah saya boleh mendapatkannya...?
guru: ada sebuah ladang gandum yang luas didepan sana. berjalanlah kamu dan jangan sesekali kamu berundur. kemudian ambillah satu ranting. sekiranya kamu mendapati ranting tersebut sangat menakjubkan, ertinya kamu telah menemui cinta.
pelajar tersebut pun berjalan dan tidak berapa lama dia kembali dengan tangan yang kosong.
guru bertanya: mengapa kamu tidak membawa sebatang ranting pun...?
pelajar menjawab: saya hanya terpaksa memilih satu ranting saja, dan sewaktu berjalan saya tidak boleh mengundur kebelakang semula. sebenarnya saya telah berjumpa dengan satu ranting yang paling menakjubkan tapi saya tak tahu apakah yang akan menakjubkan di hadapan sana nanti, maka saya biarkan ranting itu lalu saya dapati tidak ada lagi ranting yang paling menakjubkan selain daripada yang saya lihat tadi. jadi saya tidak mengambil sebatang pun akhirnya.
gurunya menjawab: ye, itu lah cinta...
dihari lainnya pula pelajar tersebut bertanya kepada gurunya, apa itu perkahwinan...?
guru: ada hutan yang subur didepan sana. berjalanlah kamu. tapi janganlah kamu sesekali mengundur kebelakang. tebanglah sepohon pokok saja. dan tebanglah jika kamu merasakan bahawa pohon tersebut adalah yang paling cantik,segar dan tinggi, kerana kamu telah menemukan apa itu perkahwinan.
pelajar tersebut pun berjalan, dan tidak berapa lama, dia datang semula dengan membawa sepohon kayu, walaupun pohon tersebut tidaklah berapa segar, cantik dan tinggi pada pandangan guru tersebut.
maka gurunya pun bertanya: mengapa kamu memotong pohon seperti ini....?
pelajar itu menjawab: sebab, berdasarkan pengalaman ku sebelum ini, aku hanya berjalan separuh daripada hutan tersebut dan aku takut akan kembali dengan tangan kosong. jadi saya mengambil kesempatan menebang pohon ini lalu dibawa kesini. pada pandangan saya ianya adalah pohon yang terbaik buat saya. saya tidak mahu kehilangannya atau menyesal kerana tidak memilihnya...
maka guru itu menjawab: itulah perkahwinan.......
Kesimpulannya...
janganlah terlalu memilih, tiada manusia yang sempurna di dunia ini.


FROM:NARD
TO:FANTASY VS REALITY
12/30/2008 4:46 pm

COPY FROM MY FRIENDSTER INBOX MSG

NOW U HAVE TERMINATED UR FS ACCOUNT..THE ONLY WAY U CAN RUN AWAY FROM ME..CONGRATE!!

1st entry in this month..

i can smile in every single moment now ;)Finally i had my own broadband.so no need to go to resak.have to wake up my roomates.There are sometime i fell guilty to disturbing my roommates and neighbours.so no more noise at midnight anymore.



a few days before eid,i accompany amiroL to penang.I think he should remember this moment which i sacrifice for him.

Pantai Merdeka camp already past.but a lot of bad memory still in my mind.I was in sick situation from 1st day i arrived there.i dont pray to be like that.but i definitely in bad mood.there have someone who i never know him close ask me about my life style.I fell very sad about the way he questioned me.So rude..i Dont think i can forgive him..even i forgive him..i dont know how to face with him after this..i just now feel stranger person in my batch.. T_T

I and amiroL have made some discussion in pantai merdeka about rumors between us.I take the opportunity to explain the things that i never satisfy with him from sem 1.Glad because he open-minded and say sorry for those mistakes.the first time i heard the word sorry from his mouth. :/

Today just left 2 weeks before this semester 4 end.i should look foward now and never look behind.the past i throw it far away..

psst:nobody know my bufday..hehee,thats is all i hope actually..i dont like anybody contribute me..

SO LONG NO BLOGGING[AGAIN]

Many things occurred in 3 weeks I did not update entry this..

1.I have been quarantine caused suspected suffering from H1N1 flu.6 days mc(21 - 26 august).Enjoy the quarantine moment in Kolej Mayang(girls' hostel).hehe

2.there is conflict between i and AmYrol which made our friendship broken.until today he never says "sorry"yet and withdraw the word that he said..
3.got 3 days free holiday,never miss the opportunity to go back home and spent my time with family for berbuka .sometimes force myself to fight with laziness,got to work aerly in the morning to paint my house before hari raya coming.anyway my house seem bright and colourful.
4.I crossed 4 tests in one week and It feel like disappointed feedback...huhu
5.amYrol argued with members group from kelantanese.and fight almost happened .Anyway i just only know 3 days after that news incidence spread..

ok fine..aku anak mak..so??why should i ashame with that???

Bila dahaga, yang susukan aku.....mak

Bila lapar, yang suapkan aku....mak

Bila keseorangan, yang sentiasa di sampingku.. ..mak

Kata mak, perkataan pertama yang aku sebut.....Mak

Bila bangun tidur, aku cari....mak

Bila nangis, orang pertama yang datang ....mak

Bila nak bermanja, aku dekati....mak

Bila nak bergesel, aku duduk sebelah....mak

Bila sedih, yang boleh memujukku hanya....mak

Bila nakal, yang memarahi aku....mak

Bila merajuk, yang memujukku cuma....mak

Bila melakukan kesalahan, yang paling cepat marah....mak

Bila takut, yang tenangkan aku......mak

Bila nak peluk, yang aku suka peluk....mak

Aku selalu teringatkan ....mak

Bila sedih, aku mesti talipon....mak

Bila seronok, orang pertama aku nak beritahu.....mak

Bila bengang.. aku suka luah pada..mak

Bila takut, aku selalu panggil... "mmaaakkkk! "

Bila sakit, orang paling risau adalah....mak

Bila nak exam, orang paling sibuk juga....mak

Bila buat hal, yang marah aku dulu....mak

Bila ada masalah, yang paling risau.... mak

Yang masih peluk dan cium aku sampai hari ni.. mak

Yang selalu masak makanan kegemaranku....mak

kalau balik ke kampung, yang selalu bekalkan ulam & lauk pauk.....mak

Yang selalu simpan dan kemaskan barang-barang aku....mak

Yang selalu berleter kat aku...mak

Yang selalu puji aku....mak

Yang selalu nasihat aku....mak

Bila nak kahwin..Orang pertama aku tunjuk dan rujuk.......mak

where ever i go Miss u so much ..please forgive all my sins..sometime asheralph always turn the voice loud when speak with mak..im sorry..!!!all my soul,blood and any part of myself is urs..asheralph never pay back the pain for giving my birth..asheralph will owe these all for entire my life...

hate this word....."acap".....no one ever call me the name eccept certain of my classmate..!!!

Kinda felt sentimental when heard korean song(as 0ne ost Sassy girl) ..imagined if i can learn in overseas such as turkey,Uk or any eastern-west country,i would like to take one girl as my wife,all their girls much pretty at all.. :)
Might be the opportunity will come true someday.Insyaallah..Allah maha pemurah rite..??i only have to pray a lot and working hard.

Today was fasting day for me(optional fast) .I took 3 peaces of bread for berbuka.At the same time together with someone who snack out glancing and cynical smiling from my backward.hehe...what a surprising..glad to see him actually,the first time we knew each other was in our first module..then more close at level 3 pulai,he some crazy..but anyway he never make any trouble for me.So its enough be friend with the type person.always keep himself innocence after absent to class.i ever saw him warned by a lecturer in semester 2..anyway he still cool..
and the thing that i cannot forget from him is we have same feeling with same girl..who is she??just we both only know..hahaa..now not sure he still have feeling or not.. :P

For fasting day Tomorrow,its become more challenging,the class start earlier in the morning,should little bit control my eyes sighting girls in uitm perlis..its hard for almost guys actually..but ill try my best..hehe..by the way,fasting month will comes just a few weeks.May Allah accept my kindness and forgive ALL my weakness.Just a simple person we never and ever run from mistakes.Sometimes we never realizes that our god is a justice,he pay back for everything we have done either something kinds or bad.

I have sat,looked and heard all my friend around me did,the facts are they were good manners,funny,love to lough and smile..but might be of my existence in the class was ruin everything.Once i did some presentation in front of class,i can feel silence voices..i could see certain pals no looking at me..certain pals show their sympathy at me..and certain pals ignored me at all..are they stuck up at me or what??sometimes the guys pretend to make me chill,but they were talks behind me..every semester,before final exam they always ask for forgiveness..For what reason they don't state..
until now i dont like to heard the word "acap"..the sounds like jeered me!!!i know most of malay south people familiar the name "asyraf" as "acap".But i rather like people call me asheralph..i can feel the voices of respect...

Return to uitm arau today with moody ..

Feel happy to go back there..everything i already solved,anyway what my sis said last nigh little bit make me offended.

"asheralph tuu mmang x qeti berhadapan dgn oqang kot??"..then mak interrupted,"uhm memang pon,dlu kalau nk bagi ucapan kat perhimpunan sekolah pon dh terketaq-ketaq,.......bla...bla.."

WHY??WHY its happen to me???..common laa you all,just only an order at KFC make you all said like that..its definitely wrong!!my sis was the first person played the issue..i don't know what is wrong if i make an order like a villager-dialect..i think the cashier looks like that too.whats the funny here??If you think I'm doing something dumb,OK..just give some advise and correct me..i can accept that...but don't bring the small matter to home and tell all the story to family..!!!we all have feeling...!!!its just humiliated me!!or either you want it happened to me?u always treat me like that noorain(finally i stated ur name here)...no respect to me...!!

psstt:lough loudly..so it can make u satisfy...and padan muka aku ni kn?no one know my feeling..

deseased holiday..

Holiday..holiday...holiday...,why so early the holiday??if not because of the disease ,aim for the holiday are on 7th or 8th weeks after start lecture..but its changed a lot my plan..anyway even if I don't like this holiday..I was between the earliest people returned to home..

however when back ,abg Rizal also coincidence return on the same day..that's changed my mood too..that's mean in my head some trouble will happen,my second bro and i always no unanimous..we got some little argue both of us..due to i lose my passions to him.. no more his ex5 to post to me in uitm..by the way,i don't need his help anymore..i want to be independent.free to choose what i want..and what i want is i owed nothing to him from now..

psstt:last weekend all my classmate accept me enjoy the moment in langkawi.Hope they cheer up till scrape out my name from their mind..i hope so.. =)

long time no blogging..update myself..

Long time no blogging,i miss so much to this blog.. =)

now i have many things to express here.So many things happened on the last holiday.The holiday was so priceless..I spent almost all my time with my old best friends.It was enjoyable moment with them..Start with jogging at mengkuang dam with Sabri,then hiking bukit mertajam where i have never hike almost entire my age before this..well now i know nothing interesting up there..hehe..
and last,go to KL town..the first time i go without anybody organize 4 me..i have been independent..i plan with asrizal and nazrimi..proud of myself because i did it successfully..
all the memories will always save in my head..i realise there are still have someone to appreciate me..

[[..crying..]]
sabri pose

i candid him


uphill of bkt mertajam

bintang walk
overnight nazrimi's home


infront of KLCC

Once again


Dataran merdeka


The last holiday before come back to arau-rojak queensbay mall

Now i finishing this entry in uitm arau in third weeks..worry because always comes to resak for access wireless and It become more frequently due to addicted,
For this semester,I and jimy were not as close friend as previous semester..we only be friend for study,no more share with him my privacy story..sometimes go to class together,sometimes we go separately..

psstt..:just only 2 semester in arau..no patient to fly in free...hehehe...

am i deserve for love??

Yesterday I made some risk decision.I tried to persuade her to accept myself as a part of her friends just like before..
however she rejected it..she no more remember me..and she pretend like we never knew before..
I feel this world like ended..feel like i was in jailed..no more anybody around me anymore
I cannot sleep last nigh thinking of this..
its effect deep into my heart..
its hard to forget her..never and ever...she was the first girl went out for date with me..
we just know each other only 4 weeks..but along this 4 months,i feel she is around me..she always in my dreams..how to forget her..i don't know..

well..hope she will find somebody better than me..
but I'm still waiting for her..

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.

Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts.

But we will remember all this for the great moment in our entire life...