I got very critical condition now..a lot of repeat papers i have to face,nothing in my head now except my mother..i should hold on till end of this semester..this is last semester for me..it is embarrassing for me to plus 1 another semester..i hopefully so..

Until this moment in every morning my heart beating very quickly,the feeling of hate and love come together..when i mad of her,just want to stab her many times..anyway when my feeling calm,i just accept what happened between us..i have nobody in my side..my soul empty....if not because my mother..i rather quick my study now..

As a none-resident rite now,there are lot of money to expend..the expenditure now more than before i become N-R..i have to prepare payment for my house,the food outside here little bit expensive than inside uitm,and for that i already apply for zakat uitm..so i hope it will help me little bit..

I posted a bicycle from home so now it makes it easy for me to catch any class even night class..no more need waiting for bus anymore..till now my housemate still being silent with me..for now just set in my mind,only 14 weeks..just ignore them..don't thinking such very small matter that one..